突然間我覺得，我是最沒資格希望你…

覺得自己好不值得。

Labels: aaron koh

after one whole night of iPhone illust, i gave up. LOL im jus gonna submit that way. pastel colours (:

loves.

alright. wish me good luck XDD.


it felt so wrong. so wrong.

gotten home from school Norman says:" i dont like this, but i like your colours" hmmm. well, doesn't it the same as, he dont like it? duhh. ok. redo. ): lecturer are a headache.

alot of thing to redo or finish up. but time is running out. and...

sigh. TGIF. but halloween, and im home doing illustration! bahh!

the truth hurts.

but i never had expected it to be so hurting..

for once i thought, my wish had came true. it was not for long before i knew, it is just a promise someone made for himslf.
for once, i dare not face what is going to happen next, i trust my own feeling that, i know this time, you are saying what you meant.

for once, i felt, everything seems real seems so hurt. unsure how to relate it anymore.

i hate myself for knowing so much.

maybe, i was never meant to be.
tell me how do i stop myslf from having hopes in you..?

nothing seems right from the 23 oct. the feeling i had, i guess that's when u had change the status. hadn't have this feeling since like last yr. only god knows why i had that feeling, i somewhat still though that, sth is going to be wrong in KL. that strong feeling, i'll never forget. because it's exist because you exist.

Labels: aaron koh

now, i really felt like giving up.

Labels: aaron koh

finalise the bunny. (:



her name is Rinna, and she's giving her heart away. HAHAHAH! um.. she's kinda naked. but who cares right?

am super tired. after class, mt and i headed to print documentation and bras brasa. i saw Paul Arden new book (: am going to get it sooon. actually we was about to go back alr and saw Collin. and we went to disturb him awhile which lead to tooooo long. HAHAH! and we was so stuck in that shop.

btw. I REALISE MY BOOK COVER IS MISSING! ): gotta redo.

Labels: school stuff

im superrr tired. i couldn't wake for lesson again. ):

sooo. that explain why am i late for class dispite having a noon class. it doesn't make any difference.

went old school for photography lesson. after that i went to Dior for an interview. I messed up the timing and the place. sooo suay uh. ):

anyway, Anna was nice? but yet... scary. ok. shall wait and see if i manage to get in (::

couldn't wake up for school and ended up gotta cab to school and the cabbie uncle irritated me. ZZZ! super angry and shag so lazy to argue with him. so i shut up and slp. ROFL!

ok. i'll rem to bring "benjo" to school tml. was supposed to bring but i forgot to place in my bag. which was tooooooo small! >< cus my CPJ filled my whole bag. nb

tml am going to print all the image for the saul bass proj , mt, belle and me did. hopfully i can really catch up. though lomography im done with my concept just need to be approved and i'll print it out and make the final. (:

i miss seeing ur IM name sooo fcuking much cus u farking ain't online for sooo farking long. =S
HAHAHAHAA! ok. school work is driving me mad. XDD

Labels: baobei didi, school stuff

2:45 am

finished my book cover design like 2 hours ago? but i still couldn't sleep. ): someone. tell me why. am excited for school tml. like it'd been so long i am not in school XDD

my final for the iPhone poster (: cool eh? i love the background so much.. because i took the photos MUAHAHHAH! XDD. it's actually a piece of textured paper.


sth i adore :

it's a piece of my work that i did for my typographic assignment. (:

Labels: school stuff

some people just remains unchanged and unmovable.

[:

storyboarding is... halfway done (:

now,
left final for book cover, final for storyboard, final for POP up card, filled up all the missing img and research for my CPJ, the bunny, the portfolio, print out of lomography, and experimenting for typography (:

shit. seems like there's alot more work to do. boo!

Labels: baobei didi, precious jiejie

♥21-10-2009
cut my hair and my fringe is way disgusting!!

samuel was super sweet. he called me at 9+ jus to wish me happy birthday before his light off. (::

went dbl o with yt and ppls. our plan is, dbl o then zouk. but it turn out after dbl o we cmi to zouk and i rem calling alot of ppls but i couldn't rem who i dialed. that night was fun. met some ppl (: and then we started to drinnk like water. then i rem i went to the toilet wanting to puke but i ended up puking on the wall like merlion. XD

♥22-10-2009
met hy and we was almost late. the reason is due to me. drinking too much and having a hangover which ended i dint went school for submition and gotta rush down before 2 and then. BANG! lecturer was missing and went to search for him.





reach KL at night


ok. this is cute. a hair dryer in a drawer.


Both of us was soooo hungry. ok. mainly i think it's me. cus the day before i only ate, yogurt, sandwich and a donut. cus... yt ate alr. ): so i ate like... say.. .two bowls of rice?


went to the market. i felt both of us have the urge to waste abit of our money off. because what we bought are all unnecessarily items. i bought perfume. super unique the bottle shall post it soon. after that we headed to KL ZOUK!




Before entering they screen our temperature with a torch look-alike




that place is heavenly fun. =D i did not drink any alcohol and im uber high. >< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjZFLSkhnzxhz8wEfd2Ztd5awW50q7JFJIB1F8RtRU_lq82cgjoeVIbOQRTHlb3QfljAbPrz-VuKw8GWJIFVdy7eR2hvqu6JA9XKtTdqeKac97_obRPTabwifDobRBpTq64xbW-/s1600-h/DSC05212.jpg">

♥23-10-2009 woke up early in the morning for breakfast. im still way hungry.

hers,

mine,


HAHAHAH! am trying to look forward for A&W which was what i expected for throughout the whole trip! which mission fail. and ended having delifrance for dinner! ): mine
hers


our supper while waiting for time to sleep cus it's hy birthday when it strike 12am. (:
minus the bagua. HAHAHAH!

it's me and bagua now. HAHAH! XD

♥24-10-2009 pack our stuff and place our stuff in the lobby before we went out again. i finally saw more stuff i like but. because the second day, we never went up to shop, we was almost like only shop in the ground level. cus hy say it dont look like there's things up stairs. which the last day, i told her we have nth to do so just go up and see. (: i like there. ♥

finally bought a cape, that look similar to the shawl i bought in BKK last yr. (: my mum threw it away which only god knows why!

pretty hydrangeas survive in KL! amazing!

the messy rm when we check out.

SUBWAY is cool over there. they have vans that go ard announcing and i suppose u can buy from them oso!

ok, i wanna migrate there. and be a farmer.



im jus kidding.

Labels: baobei didi

my class is going to end very soon, and im still at home. holy shit. my stuff is not even mounted that's even worst. dont ask me whyyy. cus, my idiotic mum choose such a timing to bath and stuck in the toilet for almost an hour. god. save me

i guess i'll away for few days. unless, they have network. (:
good bye everyone ♥

got back the phone. which i realized. i havent repair my phone. and it'd been month already. somewhat i dont really bare to service. cause messages are all inside. ):

okay!. next week im gonna service it. -,-"

i think im so dead meat. i have yet touch any of the assignment i needed to complete yest as i was way too tired. and i slept super early. cus. ting wanna sleep and it tempted me to as well. duhhhh!

temptation is a sin.

back from school very tired. i keep dosing off in class even while i was doing my RPJ. stupid. and i even cutted my finger jus becase i dosed off. ):

fcuk pain.

assessment is in 2 weeks time. im still left with final touch up with logo. iPhone illustration, book cover design, typography, lomography, and the POP up card. gotta rush iPhone illustration, lomo and logo by tonight. ciaoz. gotta go nap. before i kill myself without knowing. booo!

ok. good bye.

I think, Rikki is mad to ask me go NANA on a Sunday.it jus felt so weird. LOLs. and good enough to stay at home or rather get out to do assignment instead of getting into a club with them.


I felt as though being stalked.

went to have supper with ting at yewtee plus do some assignment out while she study for her test later. Then there's this guy who sit jus opposite me. he's alone. drinking some water which i doubt it was even frm Mac. zzz! i felt the stare and i told ting the guy weird weird after i told her, not long after, she felt the same thing too.

we was so freak out. quickly, we pack our stuff and left. when i was packing i saw him grabing his keys or wallet. then as we stood up and left, both of us saw.. he kept his stuff in his pocket wanting to leave as well. so scary.

Labels: horrorify, R

been not myslf for this few days. that's what i felt. HAHAH! cus, i was doing assignment every single night without fail and im seriously dead tired. and yay. my logo was halfway done, left the colour test and the final + the story i have yet write on. whereby my illustrator gotta redo. so much for being lazy and use school given vector. ):

ok. it's 7am in the morning. good morning ppl and im going to sleep right now after i clear this stuff on the table and get back to my room.

im so afraid of tml photography class. unsure of the timing plus the location and stuff and wherby. it hit me hard, i have yet think of the concept for my lomography proj which will be due next week. i need more timeee....!!

i used to love velvet alot. but after trying to cut the text out of it.. i HATE velvet so much that i feel like buring the whole velvet off right now!

essay was hard real hard esp when i was practically sleeping in every lecture Isabelle is giving. shit. im so dead. it's already half a day since i started essay and im not even done. the final one right now. god. pls save me shower me with more time pls. (+.+)

it's alr 3:10 pm. sighs.


it seems that, i was just a bother to you that it's totally unnecessary.

Labels: aaron koh

back from bugis finally. im shag. meeting my aunt and carrying my super heavy lappy around is crap. my shoulders are crying out loud now. ):

she asked me. are you still coming. but i dont know what to say alr. i just replied i dont know. somewhat, not wanting to tell her we ended it. i jus pause there not knowing what to say.

school's busy. proj. and still proj. catching up is freaking hard when, there's 9 assignment undone. some merely even touched. im such a goner.

i dont know why im always in such harsh situation. ): gonna lock myslf at home and face my CPJ and lappy over the week ends. chaos. gotta start writing my dumb essay right now. and i mean NOW ):


okay, this is how i felt right now. dead.

Labels: aaron koh

it's finally comfirmed. somewhat, im not excited. not at all.

im so dead, because i got everything scheduled and it's all so packed. tml. still gotta meet my aunt for dinner. ):

tonight i gotta rush the analysing of the mobile phone and finish the vector of the iphone plus the 3 essay if i could if not tml shall be very hectic night for me. ):

school was rather busy lately, im starting to catch up the recent projs but the old projs was all pile up. shit. so dead.

received your text, this morning. i dont know how should i reply you, because all you said was friend. and since yesterday night. i dont wan to just be friend. but... im happy you texted me.

Labels: aaron koh

Went OCH today. (: was alright. couldn't wake up as usual. and it's so early that they meet. 11am. ): ended i cabbed there.

and the taxi driver was so @#&!_(&%$@_%! make me waste my money. zzz

will someone donate their brain to me pls? lack of it.

will upload the photos once i got a new card reader. the old one has spoiled. ):

super shag during Collin lesson today. I waste my effort of not sleeping yesterday as, collin says, it's incomplete. ): so.. meaning. redo is needed. urghs.

did the model of the phone. quite okay i think. gotta continue on thurs.

OCH tml. (:

time check 5am. and im undone. Collin is so gonna kill me

wasted a trip to school today. waste my time. headed to ting house to get the "thing" i asked her to help me buy. im so touch. T.T i would never dare to..

after that accompany her to J8 get her stuff and finally headed home. pop up card is gonna due tml and... now, it's 10pm and i haven yet start anything. ):

miss someone terribly. but.. it's only one sided i guess.
you drive my emotions up and down.

im terribly afraid now. afraid there's sth extra in me. T.T

(: YUUKI is NOT LEAVING TONIGHT! ^^


headed over to find yuuki for 5mins. then went off. he's suppose to leave sg tonight and go back to japan due to some problems. but.. because, his friend forgot to do his visa... HE COULDN'T LEAVE! HAHAHAHAH!

Labels: aaron koh

my lecturer is finally early for class for the very first time.

now. alot gotta do alot of catching up with my work. sighs.

well... met py and ml after work and we went out for dinner together


i booth with my macbook at py home.



edited by py

upsad.
pointless,
nothing solved,
cried.

but nth had changed.
it's still a life, i could never accept.

waiting dont help.
hoping dont help.

it's just like time that couldn't travel back. we are still the same. nth change. it's the 198 post. and 29 days since you left.

School been bad to me. couldn't catch up. and i seriously need motivation. ): suddenly, i hate Iphone.

--------

now, i finally got the answer. sth i never wanted to hear.

true love? HA! how do ppl even define it. by not quarreling?

Labels: aaron koh

好想好想。

my class mates are too hardworking.

heard they alr finish their assignment on hybrid fruit. and there im.. empty. super stress. )): holy shit. how am i supposed to catch up? Tell me.

went to class for discussion with lawerance today and, my idea was approved kinda. (: and headed to work. i wore too formal today. even kel says so when he saw me in the school lift. crap.

this girl is too free that she make up for me -,-"


after then cheng randomly called me. met her after work and we went to find yt. and waited for her off work. and she took so super long. and... we are.. so gonna be fat cus.. as we wait. we eat.

didi went in today.

Labels: aaron koh, baobei didi

im so tired. after one night of rushing RPJ.

collin class was like usual interesting, but loads of things to be done. ):

everything was plain normal till i get home and gotten a shock of my life. horrible it is.
i jus want you get lost that very moment i saw it. and amazingly, my tolerance level had reach am waiting for daddy to come home and let me rant. im mad angry.

Labels: my mother is a bitch.

tml RPJ is kinda due. and this min here, im not rushing it. but online-ing. i think, it's quite scary. ):

my RPJ is toally blank. or one should even says, I HAVE GOT NO RPJ TO START WITH! GOD! how great would that be. sigh

fb hates me that it took quite long for it to load and reply your messages. ):

Labels: aaron koh

Really felt bad.

If i know what's in your mind. Things would be better i suppose.

Labels: aaron koh

5 more weeks till assessment. i think.

------random-----

things i wanted to know, answer i want to know.
was things, you never could tell me on your own even you got answers for them.
you rather keep it to yourself.

because of dignity, i think, you asked me to ask again what i wanted to know and stuff. but what i wanted to know has alr been repeating again and again. it's like im pushing things and after that i'll be blamed.

I would rather you as a whole tell me. then making me to ask, and ended, no replies no answers, topic change.

because there's people like this existed, i hate reality.
don't really wan to venture anymore. i feel like just staying in my comfort zone. waiting for people to step in. rather then me stepping out alr.

Labels: aaron koh

had jus started a tiny part of my CPJ. (: but still it's like merely 10% done.


It's more of going around singapore searching for a "pluck" to charge the lappy instead. zzz
headed from yew tee to cck to bb to farrer rd and then final location. my house downstairs. it's all crap.

i only managed to write sth on my CPJ and paste some research img. that's all. and i jolly well spend 6 hours alr. god.

anyway. mood is round today. it'd be perfect if.. there's stars as accompaniment. anyways.

SHITS does happen, realised, my researches are gone. cus... mr carrot close my tabs without knowing it. zzz!! so dead. i alr complie everything nicely.. T.T wks back. all gone to the drain )): need extra motivation to do all over again. sians.

Labels: unusual sat night

Supposed to be in Norman Class. but he was late for 40 mins and everyone decided to leave. left me, mt, belle.

everyone started to call me cus, they tot i wanna complain. but in fact i was just going to submit my MC. zzz. =.="

now updating in sophia class. ROFL! she's having review. haha!

Today, it's collin and andri class again (: i jus love collin class to the max. and andri sucks to the max.

we did blind drawing and contour drawings.

"You look small and bitter. here, a bitter gourd for you. "
Collin told me that. zzz



supposed to do a hybrid fruit sth. couldn't rem what it was.




the fruit is smiling.

yays. Collin likes my contour drawing (:

I was wondering, is lasalle going to collapse. -.-
while drawing halfway, school was shaking. everyone of us thought it was the person next to us erasing the drawings they were drawing. because we were all doing our blind drawing and was extremly focusing on our fruit.

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