I really feel weird. everything is not what it used to be. I really feel like giving up sometimes. sometimes it just no use telling you. I really just hope everything back in place.. to how it used to be. weather it could or couldn't it will determine the outcome.

maybe it will turn out like jiejie situation but... i dont have a choice to it. do i? Just hope she will be fine. (:

I really hope things will change for the better to us. if not... i guess we have to bid good-bye. ):

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things really aint the same. for some reason i really really felt its hopeless. really. i couldn't hang on much longer. maybe i dont noe how i should. things you proclaim seems meaningless. yest you called me. then you said you'll called back. only when i msg to ask if you're calling back then i received your call. then you gonna hang up... and i heard radiation... seems really as though you're waiting for a call. then you called me again past midnight. I don't felt like answering. but i pluck my courage to answer. and you talk to me as if its my fault again. I din't find trouble before hand I kept all those unsecured to myself alone. and you're speaking as though I pick a fight with you again.

it's seems so wrong. I'm wondering what's our status.

I'm having insomnia again...

finally slept having those dreams of Roger in the ICU. pretty scary. and there came that fcuking irritating guy call me again. is like... (#$&%$(@!%_!%_!#*$% he say he will stop. why din he. I seriously dont need his attention. SERIOUSLY DONT NEED.

I couldn't sleep back again after that call. check to see if i had any msges from you. but... I've got none. then i went online and your nick changed to your off days. I'm really wondering who are you trying to say to? hais... I was actually hesitating if i should go tonight. but... from your behavior... I guess i need to go. I need sth to clear my mind of you. sth that will redirect my attention on. My attention is what you dont need or was it me that you dont need. I used to know every single stuff of you first. but now. I'm almost as thought the last one.

I should have left on sat. but now. it's too late, sth hung on to me. FCUK THAT!

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can u feel how i feel?

I dont know but I seriously felt very unsecured. indeed very. any moment my tear could just roll down. I'm at the verge of giving up. sth held back. I seriously dont know what are you thinking anymore.

I miss those used to be happy moments. Do you know the feeling of yes but actually no? no but actually yes? I'm having such feeling.

I'm slowly getting sick of everything going on.

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I think my phone camera is spoil. which explains those weird photographs. zzz.

Thurs was sick, had a fever, I couldn't even sleep well. woke up like super early in the morning regardless of how tired im. I just couldn't sleep. whole body was burning hot. and having flu as well. wtf. horrible.

was beaten up again. and went to see the docs. get the med and rest at home till evening i went to my cousin home help him with the e-learning. (:: then my aunt gave drink so much barley to drink to cool down my temperature. =.=" it's so unbearable hot.

did some cupcakes but not really cupcakes. as it should be a fondue i think it's spell this way. I din taste it. =X my cousin say it's nice. but the other one din't leave any comments. zzzz..

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fri went to dbl o for the 10th anniversary. (:: met xt and headed off with aaron, andy and xt. went to Mhd Saultan to have our dinner after we get into dbl o with the invitation cards. ate at ah yeat seafood restaurant. then after that we headed in. was so fun. david was some how very mean. he mix different types of liquor and ask us to drink. taste so horrible. at the end of the day Aaron was totally cmi and Andy still can walk yet semi drunk. I remember I was so mean. I slap both of them to ask them wAke up. esp andy. he have to wAke up as no one will be sending him home and he still have to send xt. david carried aaron home. and I think no one will ever let aaron be drunk. he's fcuking heavy to be carried. XD

Xintian and me.
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David and Aaron. (this is the david which mixed those liquor and ask us drink it.)


David and Aaron (::


XD


you dont just call anyone baby in your contact list esp when u claim you like someone. nevertheless shouldn't send a msg contains muacks all that, people will misunderstand. im utterly disappointed.

was fun though!
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went ice skating. we wanted to go to jurong entertainment ice skating. but... i dont know why they close at 7:30pm and we reach there at 7pm and then know that it close in 30 mins time. zzzZZ!! ended we went to Kallang leisure park for Ice skating as we called to check and know that it close at 12am. (:: headed there skate.



I suddenly have a thought of you. the first time you held my hands. the very first conversation. (:: but. where are you now?

I forgotten how to skate totally. i've got phobia alright. I once nearly broke my arms. if i din't rem wrong the last time i skate was in pri sch or lower sec. forgotten. had some fun there's this guy working at the skate park that reminds me of someone. somehow. (:: fragment of memories i still remember.

after ice skating we went to katong to had supper. then i recieved a call from victor. asking me to go down bq. wooots. long time since i saw that group of guys. (:: cool. they drink like crazy. it seems as though its water. half way met Sophia for a while accompanied her to jet 1 to look for xiao john then after that she went off with eunice while i headed back to waiting bar. (:: and soon not long merilynn came down look for me. (:: I called her down. as I'm the only girl over there. felt so awkward. as all are my seniors from kranji. all 1984 de... I'm the youngest over there. (:: regardless of that I enjoy myself with them. but their group is getting smaller and smaller. from what used to be 10 over. till 6 left. and that JONAH din't came down. )::

Brothers for 10 yrs. (::


me and merilynn at waiting bar


Victor and me (:


I din't know thay they opened 5 bottles till wei jie pass me 5 marbles and merilynn had 3 of it. whilch means 4 bottles. and we still have half bottle balance. so.. total five of it. sheese. and we are like so big shots. you see. waiting bar close at 3am... but because of us. the boss open till 4am for us. JUST FOR US! (::

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some ruthless act ended up to a break up. im not sure if i really wanted it or did i not. but it seems so clear that its over. as the way u showed me.

During work, I encuonted some weird photographs when i snaps the floswer i took. a caught sth weird with it. not on the flower but the floor. eeeeewww. Raffles is sure scary.

I'm dead tired but i couldn't sleep. my eyes dont seems to close. my head is burning hotter den yesterday. GOODNESS! I hate having fever. been long since i had it. I seriously not gonna bother about it. XD so... yea im nt sick. zzz.. chatted with my aiai jus now. she dont wAnt le la. ):: hurmphf. wad honeymoon sia. Shit u. faster come back find me. =X she jio me go club tml;which is actually today as it've pass midnite when i blog. and then when i ask her again she say she nt going cus she's BANNED!!

I so miss having fun along with you lurhs. )::

i miss rounding too. haven really been rounding since last year. totally miss the wind and deeply i miss the feeling of it. sigh.

some guy really irritate the shit out of me. mr zhi zhong STOP IT LA. wahlau. you claim you'd stop yet you still msg me. I just seriously dont know. the one i wanted attention never could gave me full yet those i dont want attention from gave me hell lotsa it.

words you could say yet i could never. things i stop yet you couldn't see.



Anyway,



Happy Birthday to YOU and Andy!

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yesterday night was so weird. some1 delicate a song for me. (=.=") chirs brown-with you. Weird right? more ever I was date to the ferris wheel. should i feel happy or not. yikes. I dont know. (: I'm still thinking weather to go anot.

I'm so tired. ): waking up early in the morning. went to tuas for that event then headed to meet my baobei didi (: Gees! Both are so shag. as i meet him at 1pm. Yeayeayea. random I go out so early but... NO CHOICE. I wanted to sleep at home. till so late to get out. (: but.... sue ask me to do that event. ): and it start as early as 10am. shit right i gotta meet her at 8:45am... but i was so late AGAIN as usual. SHE WAS SO DISAPPOINTED!! who cares. (:anyway mange to hurried to meet her asap. (:(:

went imm wid di then headed back home and back to town.

the bouquet i did (: special Holland Rose.



snaps.

snaps


snaps. (: happy birthday







the soup and my drink (:


piza.


the miso soup

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Just back from SHEBANGS.

I regreted going down. should stay at zouk with merilynn and her friend and Andy and his friend. like so totally waste my time. waste my money. fcuk. i just hope junhui trans me by tml. if nt i can really eat shit till that cheque is banked. FCUK!

urghs. any kind ppl would like to donate to me? LOL!!

anyway. i hate this shits that is going on every time you are there. so cork up. you are so pathetic.

snapped before I got out for interview. LOOK AT ANDY SLEEPY LOOKS. so funny. HAHA!! he's like a turtle sia. =X


went interview happily. but ended low morale after it. I asked u where you wanted to go after my interview you told me dont know maybe watch movie or sth after interview then say. on the way to my interview, andy called. and he want meet you or sth. you expect me go back so early. even though watch movie is like wth we are so near town you wan me go there. then go home alone hur.

mostly i will cab home alone. and i hate JP alot can? I'm choosy can? I control your life? ok. forget it. I'll stop.

Merilynn, I'm sooo sorry for today. XD

anyway. I enjoy my day alone with merilynn, her friend and carrot (:

we ate and ate and ate. ha! I'm so gonna have my good mood up if not I will really look like a pig the very next time ~.~



I love that drink.


thats out tea ONLY. we had pasta for dinner. rofl. HAHA!! than pooled and ride home (:
awww.... R1 XD

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I really fcuking cant stand some guy from another part of singapore. jus dont know WTH he is thinking. I make it so clear and he kiip calling or smsing. stop of a moment and came again. WTF is happening to Singapore guys now.

First was Des. he stop jus random hellos sms ignore will do. but this guy name zhi zhong is fcuking cmi. he call call call. sms sms sms. nb think every one is as free as u har. even there's sth that u should know even u know it wounldn't make anybetter dont u know. tmd. stop harassing me la fcuker.

he dont even understand simple english. I told him to get a life and guess wad's his reply. its a life that u talking about than i have the right to know wat is wrong that make u behave like that as it is oso part of my life. HAHA!!

he seriously dont understand simplest english.

YOUR LIFE? ME!? NO. it sounded so wrong. U aint in my part of life. I am a part of ur life? HAHA! funny to see. so fuckin funny.

he said sorry in sms to me jus now but. i feel that there's more to come. he always never stop

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feeling weird some random question are being ask. In the middle of the night. how should i feel? Sometimes it's really tiring me out. all the unsecured, hopes is making me wondering what is wrong and what is really going on. I couldn't help thinking more. DO YOU STILL LOVE ME? my brains have been thinking alot recently. )


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You want to know what happen? I really felt you are so irritating thats why.

Do you rem when was the last time i talk to you on phone? IF you dont. i can tell you. it's on a night while I'm on my way home and my phone was shutting soon. I told you so dint i? that moment you should have jolly well hang up. but you insisted not to and told me when I reach home I could charge my phone. who the hell are you to me? NOTHING. remember it's NOTHING. so why are you acting like there's something between us? Must I really listen to you can really go home and charge, I'm not no life like you that wouldn't have any last min programmes.

IF you are thinking of fling?- you are not even fit. HA!

After that incident, do you think i will still wanna spend a worthless phone call with you. Now i understand why you gave yourself your own nick irritating guy. when you first call me. SINCE you knew u are irritating, you should change. Am I right? SO STOP BOTHERING me.

Neither your calls nor sms are important to me. GET IT STRAIGHT.
You are not irritating me nor bothering me but you are HARASSING ME.

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Guess where did i went yesterday night? I guess most people cant imagine i dint went drinking. but i meet up with andy to eat dinner then we headed to look for Xintian at Eric house. XD

and guess what we did there. we play 3 person mj and then watch tv and vcd and guess what it's already 6am in the morning so Andy and i went down and took a cab home.

Sounds funny right?


then i suppose it'll be more funny when i said I mistook a flower as a bird. WTF. in mj there's animals as flowers am i right? and shity i tot the chicken was that damn bird which belong to the bamboo family. it was more funny that. I hold on that tile till the very end. sigh. which means...

I have this.



but it should be



I mistook that chicken as the bird la.


xintian and Andy only notice it when they wanted to tell me what actually i could do. when they saw it they luff sia. ): so bad.

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I heard Wednesday night at Phuture was fun lurhs. I hate to say I missed it. aww. should went with them. sigh. But instead i went East Coast. Nothing fun there really. thought i love the sea. XD

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the interior over there the bar


Below the bar (pretty right?)



HEY!!

LOOK AT MERILYNN!!





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Am i drunk while taking this pic?




NO!! YOU ARE DRUNK. HAHA!!
actually she moved her HANDS!! =X


The Videos we took there of the band. they sing great




I NEVER saw a guy actually dance with some random guys whom he dont know in club. more ever they look so close. ew. and guess what? both disappear randomly and I forget is Merilynn sms him to ask where's he or he sms Merilynn himself saying that "I'm doing solid business in the toilet." I can rem after I read the sms. disgusted by him.


WE THINK HE WENT TO THE TOILET TO FCUK THAT GUY!! HAHAH!! =X

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I'm beginning to hate mondays. There's nothing to do. Mondays are always blues. Met up with Sophia at night for supper. I've been saying so much to stop being a gulton but still... sigh.

after that when to look so someone (which doesn't really worth finding), and i seriously somehow regret going. As... I am alone wondering around having no idea what to do. and walking aimlessly for about 1hr plus nearing to 2hr. I've seriously never waited alone in the cold nights. HOW GREAT!

aw. anyone have vacancy jobs? I'm so in need of CASH!! ):

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Back from work. (:

scanned some of Yesterday neoprints.

Am so emo. (T-T) i lost those photos. sigh. let's grieve for few second together!! XD





Babies, I knew you love us. XP

I love you girls. ありがと。

Today I was so angry yet tired. GUESS WHAT!! people sms me early in the morning at 7 tell me he went to work. HELLO!! YOU ARE IRRITATING can? You are nothing to me, Zhi Zhong. STOP IT CAN? then you followed by numerous of calls at 10+ what the heck you want? YOU ARE AWAKE DOESN'T mean IM AWAKE. PLEASE! i answered one of your call days back, doesn't meant anything. din't you notice. No matter how much you do. What effort you did. None will touch my <3> kindly stop all this will ya?

BLA!

gotten so emo this morning. As I got some reply which i never wanted to know. I seriously take in that msg. till you said that you actually meant you dont understand what am i saying. and that msg made me hanging again. BABY, YOU SHOULD BRUSH YOU YOUR ENGLISH!!

あたし．．．待ってる。

Yesterday night was a enjoyable one. Didn't turn up for work as im not feeling well. i msged yi to check if i could dont go. (: then i went to the docs. zzz

after that Sophia called me to go down to botanical garden. so i cab down there.

Before i reach while merilynn came to fetch me while xt and Sophia:





He was happily sleeping.


the weather that very day. (: fcuking HOT


Birds we fed. ain't they cute?

They are so near to us. as merilynn cracked some chips and place there. (: it's so amazing that they dont walk and they jump!! and THEY EVEN have HUGE BELLIES when they breath? muahaha!!


And there's this turtle who basically caught by merilynn brother from the pond. HE WAS SO ANGRY that HE OPEN HIS MOUTH SUPER wide and wanted to bite Him. HAHA!! amazing i din't know that turtle had sucha big mouth. x)

hey sophia where is the turtle pics? nvm i grab from you.



and then it RAN trying to ran back to his home town. but sadly... WE CAUGHT HIM BACK. as... his legs are so SHORT!! =X but he ran super fast most of us a amazed by it. we shoot a video of it walking and runing back to his pond. which he did a somersault which landed into his home. XD so bad of us right?


I shot some beautiful goose... but... SOPHIA dint manage to send me the pics.
And i rem i shoot alot of plants cus me and merilynn are so amused by it. so uncommonly seen outside. then the turtle on almost on top of eachother and alot more. but... I DONT HAVE THOSE PICS. T-T

lastly we tried to jump but... ended like this.







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about evening time, we cabbed back home (:

meet Sophia and merilynn at cine at 11+ again for CLUBBING!

met laura ziling and xanny there. (: had hell loads of fun.

Let me share sth funny...

At the danefloor, there's two guys keep trying to dance with me and ziling, and guess what that ziling tell that guy ( some disgusting looking) SHE TOLD HIM SHE'S ONLY INTERESTED IN GURLS. then the other guy was trying to dance with me that guy told the guy who is trying to dance with me that WE ARE LES!! WTF!! i wanted to laugh so hard. LOL!! HAHAHAA!! funny right then that guy look at us unbelievingly HAHA! funny yea? Should capture down the look of Him is super funny!! OMG!

club till 3+ and we went off.

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Woke up 12+ and hurried to prepare to meet yi and cheng. (: then we took a bus down to town. feel weird typing bus down in my blog. HAHA!! seems like i dont take public transport for super long time. :s

feeling happy seeing them (:(:(: but sadening. I lost my neoprints with Rikki, the tiny version. the bigger wants i still got them as i kept at home. while the smaller wants was in my wallet. and i lost me and ziling neoprints as well. but... i have extra copies as we print small. (: but still it's sadening. URGHS!

headed home super early. Early for a girl like me. LOL!! saw Samuel and gang today at taka and then i saw Jason then i saw CINDY!! omg. is like DUH!! we are in KINAKUNIYA and i saw her. ROFL!!

loads of people have been asking me to watch iron man with them. but i am not interested in that movie. so dont ask already alrite unless... you think i will go with you. :x

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