I cant feel happiness with you anymore. somehow. It just seems like what you've once told me. you been talking on the phone with me yet you dont feel happy and i could hung up the call on u. I'm having the same feeling. I guess it's unsecured. yes it is. Somehow ridicules to say so. but still, I've been thinking about [it] even when you are just next to me. Had a moment of peace only. been having insomnia lately for about an week. almost.

maybe just too much times already. I couldn't forget how peaceful/beautiful it used to be and slowly it became just like an unwanted trash of memories. maybe. it had ended long time ago just no ones find that. slowly people around tends to feel it's a regular stuff. wad'd u think? It's been so regular till I'm sick of it.

I hated the way you think you know me. In fact, not really. more ever you slowly treat it as my habit. maybe, too often i should say. Nether less. I am trying to stop those dramatic feelings i had and tried to hide. numerous of times. uncountable.

am i really the wan that started all this. yes. thinking back could be. and you should had left me alone. but you din't. If you did, have you wondered how present will be? happiness, i think. possibility. you could continue lead a freedom life and not sth you'll felt trap in. I'm one that expects much. I somehow agree. But I dont understand. you couldn't gave what I wanted why do you still stay on, and then tell me you ain't the same as other guys that will keep giving in to me. Almost as though telling me that it will be the same without me. so why din't you alighted then stay on?



I will learn to let go. hopefully i could. maybe


May 1st? HAHA!!! Do you still rem.

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Met up with meow meow at town today. was so boring and shagged. Insomia for so fucking long. ): walk abit and then we waited for Veron to end work at SPB. I thought her dept has move there too. but unlikely no. LOL!! Suddenly wondered how is those bitches in my ex company. =X muahahaa!!

wadever.


Waited for her at Takashimaya. and then we headed to starbucks and sit and catch up. um. i tink she and meow catch up while i snoze off on the chair. LOL!! AND THAT IDIOTIC meow wanted to snap down my picture. WTH. Hopefully he din't. XD

after that headed back for my lesson. such a boring week.

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The starting of disappointment meant never ending.

It has been like everyday i met up with Andy. =.=!

wed, we went to phuture. (: it was quite fun dispite being tired. saw moon. we ziling laura and me kinda hang out with him at the dance floor. meanwhile aaron andy and laura friend tgt. while we girls was together. there's this guy who approached me for a dance he got those dumb look which freak me off and i kept running round and round cus he kinda kiip stuck by near me. @#()$Q(@#%! Laura ended up with this guy call steve!! =.=

blablabla
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Met up with Aaron andy shuwen for dinner. Im still quite piss off. for the fact the msg aaron sent that gurl in facebook. I know its an application. but words are wad you could type with your own hands. so if u like someone, you will still claim others as yours? you wouldn't. even if people ask you do you dislike/hate me. you got no choice. but to reply yes. cus. if you reply no it ment sth else. I'm too sensitive. so. dont argue back with me. for the very first time maggie then lynn then now wad? lynn you still are in contact with her and even thought you said she's like a dajie. but it dont seems so. It's seems more of it. forget it. I'm so pissing off while typing this entry i dont even know why im so piss. I kept ranting and ranting i tink andy got so sick of wad i told him.

and i know im weird for suddenly jus ignoring you ppl. cus i suddenli rem the msg frm facebook and i dont feel like i want to be there.

after eating our dinner we went to cine chilled after that went for our movie (: then i msged laura to see if she around cine or whatsoever. and she told me she is coming down cine. GUESS WHAT!! with steve. that's the guy from phuture on wed!! jitao!! (z.Z) so they went off first while me and sophia tagg along with laura and steve to HK cafe have some drinks and chill. then i got into some arguement with aaron. he smsed me. I'm so piss off regarding the facebook incident alreayd and guess what. he says i flamed him. when did i when the msg is so clearly that he's flirting around you say ZhiZhong keep sms-ing me and say he miss me all sort and you say that we got sth on WTF ppl admire me and sms me mean gt got sth wrong? i kept rikki msg was just to remind myslf that i pushed him away and not that we got sth wrong. I admit i do like rikki so what i push Him away giving and god knows what reason sayin i still like my ex. WTF. suddenly i felt so regret about it. cus i tink. it's not worth telling him those cus you are wasting my effort.

and you del me frm msn? i tink so. i came back and did my routine. then found you are nt in my list anymore. forget it. i added you back and then it came out in another folder. weird enough.

I totally haven been really enjoying this moments. im so gonna get over and out of your life. so looking forward. big flirt. im so tired for not sleeping on thursday. urghs. but i dont feel like sleeping . ):

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Sunday was a fun one for me. XD

Met Andy for a dinner at Chong Pang wid ziling. Andy was freaking slow can. I waited and Waited so long. cus he cab down to my place den we cab down together. we ate at the nasi lemak there. after that that two still want to eat dou hua. jitao. halfway im full already. I still think cck tou hua is nicer. Xp. guess what ziling still actually want to eat? jitao. lucky ended nvr if nt. i guess i really shall have a hard time to cut down food le. she keep eating.

after such a heavy dinner Andy and I decided to cab back as I dont know where is my ez link card. and he doesn't have a ezlink card as he jus got back from saba and will be going back soon. thus he dint get one. so we send ziling and we ended up playing at the exercise park and then the swing at playground. it's been so long since i play one. (:(:(:


Andy so enthu lurhs.


Look at them. LOL!! Andy and Ziling.


Look at this: (the person should be siting down on that chair and do this exercise but Andy did another way... See that picture I drew It was how he did and explain to us that it should be done that way. LMAO!!)


He did THIS!! and as us sit in front. jitao.





Look at this: MUAHAHAHAHAA!!


Actually I have videos of it. but unexpectedly. Premirer couldn't open the files from my phone so... I cant edit it la. I even try if Storm codec can convert or read. It too cannot. :( so maybe next time if... I found my converter after some edit i will post up muahaha... XD

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Just now jiale meet out for a dinner. take freaking long to drive till my house la. we went vivo walk around abit then andy called askin if we ate already or nt cus i tink he want join so ended up we wait for him. he take so long too. Jiale decided to get some donuts first. so we did. got half a dozen which mean each person 2. and we went to munch it outside vivo.

HOW ROMANTIC!! that's the view we had while munching our donuts and WAITING FOR THAT ANDY!! GRRR!!


When Andy arrive we pass him the donuts and went to have out dinner at Old Airport Rd. (: after that headed to Bedok Jetty for a walk and chill there before heading back home. I'm so afraid of there already lurhs!! if you read my old entry there's one on that. which a guy CAUGHT ME? with a rode. it just drop on my head when he throw that rod down to the sea which i dont know why it landed on my head. it was so wrong. was he throw > and i was like on His \/ funny right!! sigh.


如果，我没遇到他，我是不是永远都不知道？

friday. went to work as usual. After work went to watch forbidon kingdom with carrot and Andy. Andy was back yesterday mid-night.

saw Laura at cine and i talked non-stop about that ZOUK incident (: and I felt like an old lady at that point of time after we finish our conversation. XD

The show was funny. anyway after the show, we came out of cine and it was having this heavy downpour wHich I dont know when it started. I'm so lucky yest that i brought a cardigan with me to work oh my. OH MY.

we wanted to run to the car park. as carrot park his car over there. but ended andy and carrot ran to get it while i wait at the corner of cine. (: they are so great. after a movie. I'M HUNGRY we nearly went to eat steamboat. but ended up at Jurong West eating "ba chor mee" HAHAAA!! on the way there at the expressway, it was so fun can? there's dent in the road and pile of water was there so went carrot dad car when over all the water was splashing. look nice yar. (: anyway. passed thru Singapore flyer. feris wheel. I WANT TO GO!! ANYONE JUST ANYONE bring me will you?

I think thats my reflection. scary right? look like Sadako.


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woken up by ziling at noon. she ask me out. and her frwen drove her down to my house fetch me and then he drove us both to town. was so great. ashop for my bag first as i bought a carrier out as my bag is too big. sigh. and wanted to get a smaller one. say this bag at la.... was so pretty but it cost 300++ you see how ex it was. so i decided not to get in. and went around and got one.(: accompany ziling go touch up for her tattoo. and we went to taka and then cine meet andy and we went to tangs bought all my needs. and headed to suki sushi for dinner. then walk a lil and meet sophia.

after that we cabbed down to MOS meet samuel he paid for Sophia and my entrance fees as he promised me. as i personally hate MOS if we could get in w/o entrance I will go. we went .

I guess yuki, ken and rikki wanted to come MOS too as they called me but i couldn't hear so i asked Him to sms me. and he did. he asked if he could join us. but he din mention he was outside MOS. if he said we can think of a way to get them in perhaps? when we wanted to go home we get out of MOS and then Sophia saw yuki and kinda ran to him.it was then we know they was outside and they look kinda pissed. O.O Rikki Rikki Rikki!!
It feel so sick to hear those words even though its in sms.


talked awhile and we went off to the carpark and meet ziling friend who fetch us home. am pissed off with donovan, saw Him at MOS rnb platform. had an argument with him and he say no more bro and sis. alrite suit you then. i dont bother. somhow that status dont worth much to me.

suddenly i hate blogger so much. there's so much problems with it. wadever.

I'm so sick of that job of mine suddenly. They are so last min always. Just Yest they called me last min telling me dont have to report work as there's not much customer. ok. I had insomia the night before so i din't get to sleep until like 7am. and. i woke up just to get to work at 10+ trying not to sleep back. ended they last min ask yi to sms me saying dont have to come. so angry.

forget it.

today I dont feel like working cus insomia again and cant woke up on time. wtf right?nvm. so i text yi ask her ask can i don't go today and more ever sth cork up last min. and ended waste my trip. SO NICE OF ALEX FRIEND!!

nvm. fetch sophia and we cab down to fareast did some window shopping. ten headed to hereen and then cine. we went to play Xbox and ended up both of us forget about the timing . adding on that game is so @#($)@($% my head hurts LOL!! merilynn called then we realised we are late for her. so we quickly left and cab down to Zouk to meet her. (:

met some guy who say till as if i nOe them LOL!! but even i did i seriously dont rem. cus who will care sia. =X i only rem. all my <3's style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">corny look. LOL!! the song suck but it was still enjoyable though i was so bored cus ziling wasn't here to play with me. saded. she was in genting. ): and adding on there's this waiter name Bryan, he spill green tea on Merilynn, me and another unknown lady and did not apologise. and I'm the unluckiest. my whole back was soak with grean tea. HOW GREAT. so i aproached Him to ask for his noble name and he gave me a attitute saying it's not my fault la people pushed me so i pour on u lar. and he dint even apologise to me. even though it's not entirely his fault but. somewhat his fault. (eg. if you are taking a knief and then some accidentally push you and you stabbed on another person. you jus walk off. and never try to help nor apologize. whose fault was it? ) i'm so angry with it. grrrrr.

and yesterday seems so wrong la. went to upper thomson after that pouring incident to eat and three of us ordered cheese prata ended up... they serve us with Egg prata and Sophia and Merilynn din't notice at all. jitao. i bite first bite felt weird already they will can chom happily till i told them. (=.=)

anyone good in english can help me write that complain letter? email me ok?
Appreciate it

Finally my first day of work start yesterday. Learn alot (: from a noob to someone which can wrap flowers

my first try (sold the very next moment (: )


Second try (:

third try (:






awesome right?



after work met Sophia at my workplace nearby and headed to Cucasden to look for rikki and is gay partner. Kensuke wasn't there. anyway. look at the two of them drink. =.=" is like O.O sigh. after drinking... we took a cab down to cine, we wanted to catch a movie but sophia and i was so hungry that we headed to HK cafe to dine first. HAHA!! that the two kuku s' went to smoke. (: after we finish eating we headed up to check if there's any more movie as it's only 12am. so earlllyyy!!

ended none. as the next show was 1+ ): needed to wait for an hour so we decided not to catch it. headed to Rikki house again. is like omg la. sigh.

ended they two left us outside in the living room. they went to rikki and yoshi's room totally forgotten about US!! we headed in and then they are like WE FORGOTTEN!

LOOK AT THEM!! FAST ASLEEP!! hurmphf


forget let's look at Rikki messy desk:


Then Yoshi's Neat Desk.(thats' Yoshi; Rikki's elder twin brother)


Drawn by Sophia (:

LOOK AT THEM!! so pig. sigh.


lastly i spotted these movie tix from Sky of love:

Suppose it was that time we went to watch together with cindy (: there's one more below. thinking back, that wasn't a fantastic day. but it's still enjoyable. (:

before i forgets about it, Rikki's Gay partner don't even know what's a florist can you imagine it?




Today was my second day at work, I'm shag can? ):

the two bouquet of flower i wrapped was sold before i reach (:

First for the day:

There's one more actually but i din't manage to take the pic down.

Lastly bouquet of 3 flowers (: my very first wrap for 3 flowers (:(:(:


cheerio!

SURPRISE!! I din't went clubbing today.

some people are just so. 不知量力。when people says phone low batt and wants to hang up it means low batt. and want to hang you dont tell the person you are going home and can charge it at home. who are you to say that? you like me doesnt give you the rights to tell me what to do. I'm saying I'm going home doesnt mean I wouldn't make last min changes to my plans. this time you irritated me. and who are you din't you ask yourself before you tell me. I'm talking with you doesn't mean I'm interested in you. (: I'm just trying to be nice thats all.

alrite enough of saying bout this guy.

to another. you don't come banging door at me when I don't agree with you. it wouldn't help much.
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Saturday was quite an unpleasant wan. Met jx and we headed to Jurong Point to get stuffs she need to used to do the stuff for her anniversary with Derick. (: Every thing is just like how it was before. then we headed town. by bus. it was freaking long. when reach, we headed to far east to exchange my cardigan which there's stains on it. then we headed to eat. then went to do foot massage. HAHA!! sounded funny right? As that Sophia is super slow. she took bout 2hrs plus before she reach. omg. when we just started the massage thing bout 5min she arrived. and she was like O.O




u see the guy in green was super naggy and lame. keep talking to me non-stop. and telling me bla bla bla. was so embarrass lurh!!

after that awhile later Sophia left to meet Eunice to Accompany her for her tattoo. (: then when me and jx was done with it. we bought some dvds and headed to cine. gugu called me when i was outside cheers then ask where am i. As she was at cine too. meet her for awhile and we went off.

then we went to k pool but it was so full!! We wrote out names down and then headed to walk about and I finally bought thay blosoom top. (: Recieved the called from kpool saying there's space then we went there and pooled. Nature calls for me suddenly. so we left. (: and I felt like munching something. headed to TCC just next to California. which is opposite cine. I ate like a glutton that day. when we reach TCC. jx and Derick was having some argument. Which I feel so irritated as i felt I shouldn't be involve but yet they just drag me in. is like WTF can? YOUR GF you dont like her go out den you LOCK her up in YOUR HOUSE YOUR ROOM la. LET HER GO HOME FOR WHAT. If you so dislike me then say in front of me names you called us bitch? Did I even offended you ASSHOLE? 彼のなにもでもくず。



You see all are mine. (: muahahaaa!! such a pig rite? I can't stand myself too. gosh.

when I'm almost done called Sophia down while jx is still having that argument with Derick. Totally cannot stand it. You dont trust him. He don't trust you either. Is like omg can? jitao. unbelievable you two will soon be 1 yr. sigh. anyway. good luck. Not gonna bother bout it. dont come rant at me wanting me to help. I learn it from my fall last year by trying to help. すべた。

Met Sophia after eating at cine.

and then we headed to Homeclub and drank tequila at there.


photo grab from Merilyn.
it was a crazy night. (: with them.

More snaps of kensuke Birthday.

可愛いです。

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Yesterday finally met up wid my gugu. (:

<3>

met her and went down to Zouk for interview. the pay super sucks can? the very first time i heard night time job pays $6.50/hr. is like OMFG! and what i heard the highest go up to only $8/hr. like fcuk. eeeewWW.

nvm. it was like yest was totally unlucky can? after the interview its like we get out and it RAINED like there was not going to have any tomorrow. can? then we tried calling the cab but. all was busy no one entertain us. so many new cab yet the hot line is busy we keep calling and calling. there's some luck though. (: i guess the guy is going for interview too. he alighted at zouk and we quickly got into it. (: and headed to far east. but due to my cravings we ended changing location (to cine) and the uncle is like pissed off or sth. told us this and that and even say dont change any more bla bla bla. i seriously dont know why he have to say that when he's earning.

reached cine we ran from the taxi stand to the enterance. we are like two madie.

reach cine. first thing we headed to toilets. and there's this unglam aunty i guess so, as she dont look real young. she was like drying herself outside the cubicles and i dont see why when there's still so much cubicles for her to use. is like . she hid at the side of the door where when it open can be seen. what's that for ? GO INSIDE THE CUBICLES LA. EEEW!

then we headed to suki sushi. (: ordered what i wanted usually. and i even told cindy that. "gugu, dont eat so fast ok? cus it's raining" but.....





I think i was too hungry. and i ate real fast.!! (:

spend a totally of an hour at there. then headed to walk at blosoom. i saw a tube that i like. but din't bought it. ): i'm so regret i dint gt that. sigh. nvm. shall get that soon. went in to some gay looking shop (forget the name the guys working there seems gay) there's this guys talk to me non-stop and i'm kinda pissed with him la. cus he says i look older then cindy!! wth. GUGU where can lidart. ): you must look older then me ok. you faster grow old. hurmphf!!

after then we headed to fareast. and bought a cardigan. saw eunice at there too. and she told me she wanted to be single single?! was like o.O

then walk abit and all shops are closing already.





i'm starting work again next tues. (: at cityhall. Raffles City. (:(:(: visit me.





when are you reaching home!! T.T

I think i'm having insomnia for the last week. so this week is like sleeping like noboody business. haha!! got out finally on Tuesday with huiyi. went to cityhall for interview. (: then we headed to Tampines to walk abit. then headed to IKEA. as i wanted to look for bed? HAHA!! maybe a small table too. um... maybe shelves. LOL!! seems as though im going to move.

I'm not moving house but moving room. HAHA!! i know thats LAME. alrite. I saw this white bed which make me go gaga completely. am going to get that when my room is painted drawed and CLEANED. I already took 1 freaking weeks but i think it's getting worst. HAHA!! if only... I know how to alkakedeba then it will got poof!! all gone. (:

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wednesday supposingly to meet ziling, laura and sophia for club. Sophia back out in the noon. and I last min back out too. thanks to my lazy behavior. I should be meeting sophia for dinner and walk abit...at night ard evening. but i fall asleep frm 2pm. till guess wad 7+pm. woke up due to my mum. she switch on the lights. *)^@)$@(&%@#%^ so i woke. i jump up and dial sophia num and she told me. "You're sleeping right? I'm on my way home already" OMG was what on my mind that moment. HAHA!! then after that i called ziling. and i start to hesitate to go or nt to. as i might not get into phuture. ): she manage to make me go at that moment but while waiting for time i decided not to go again. i'm so flicker-minded.

YAY!! meeting cindy soon. I'm go gonna go make-up now. though its only 12+ and i'm meeting her at 3+ but i think i'd drag and i dont want to miss that interview at ZOUK!! and I'm starting work nexzt tues at the flower shop (:

If there's a time capsule machine will you use it to turn back time?

suddenly i find it so funny. that some would want to. but I seriously think there's no need as fate will bring you another lovely chapter, a new person, a new place, a new memories or maybe a new life.

was talking to Sophia on phone last night as April Fool day. she fool me with... blablabla I thought it was real. As after i fool her with Tetsuki stuff, i totally forgotten it was April Fool. (~.~")

Aaron as well fool me. these two are idiots. BIG BIG liars. =X ops!!

Thinking back the time how i met Sophia (in sec sch before she trans out. [=.="] ), Aaron, Ziling, Rikki, Tian Xiang, Wen Hong, etc.

it was as if. a part of my memories. some of you might hope to get back to what it used to be. how happy at that point of time. I hoped onces too. but think twice. there's a gap. a invisible gap in between. No matter you hope to turn back it will never be the same. Unless Fate allows it.

I'm starting to believe in such things as miracle do happen. but maybe once a lifetime.

(:

p.s. Cindy: give up alrite. x:


Anyway Happy April Fool Day ppls <3.>

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